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15.04.03 (02.05)

Oh, I'm not doing much. I'm talking to a girl and trying to ignore the fact that M suddenly decided it was a good time to reappear and tell me that "one day, I'll let you know what Hurt by Nine Inch nails means to me" and I sit on my hands because of the overwhelming desire to tell her to go away. I am too nice. I can't do that. But I don't want to see her, I don't want to talk to her, I'm perfectly happy with the every six months approach of "how are you? fine? good, me too. bye". I DON'T CARE. And I can't stand this...

I'm on aim with Katie though, and it's fun:> Since I'm going to London in June, I get to meet her again, and I can't wait:> She makes me all smily and giggly and happy:> In a purely platonic way:>

And then she told me that she found my diary (almost two years ago) via clicking on a Badsnake banner, and it's all so random, you know. And then there was this mental image of a life without knowing her, and it's odd.

So maybe I'm just grateful for the odd coincidences that is life. And for easter vacation and lovely friends and happy thoughts and books. not to forget books. And I just read my buddy list. I love you people, I do.

*clings to buddylist*

See? I'm sentimental:>

And while on the subject of random accidents/strokes of luck. if I hadn't asked for the text of "our father who art" in English, I would never have known this random man, who seems to faithfully read my diary, without ever telling me anything about himself, but always giving me advice. Good advice even:> And I've never mentioned him because.. I never have. And I'm just grateful and thankful for the chance to talk to all these people, even if they sometimes disappear from my life. It's always been fun while it lasted. and that's what counts. So I'm thankful for the random accidents that make up my online life and my online friends and even though I don't update enough, and probably never will get back to it, I still love this place. I pay my 30$ because I want to help Andrew, because I want to contribute. We all throw in our share, you know.

I'll go away now, before I leave tear-shaped stains on your computer screen:>

Music of the moment: Beck and Beatles and Beth Orton, oh my...
Favorite? You and you and you and everyone!

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