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I'm leaving tomorrow, so I update today.

09.06.03 (21.55)

I figured that since I'm leaving for London tomorrow, I should atleast give one little update, just because. I'm all packed and ready, slightly nervous, since it'll be my first time travelling abroad without my parents. And it doesn't seem as though Grrr will be much help, as she's even more piss-scared than me:> I shouldn't laugh at her, but it's cute:>

She's been sending me text messages all day "have you remembered this? how about that? Oh no! There is! WAAAAAAAAAAAH!" She's worried we're booked into a one person room, as the reservation said "Party of one", however it was a double room, so... I don't know, she's a lot more nervous than me, I'm just taking it all as it comes. Also, she's nervous we'll get lost at the airport.

She isn't really helping much in steadying my nerves, but I'm doing that on my own. Because at one point or another I suddenly realised that it won't all go to hell unless I throw myself in it, and then it might not be fucked up, so it's worth a shot either way. It only took me twenty years, but I guess that's OK. Especially since I spent the first half of that being oblivious to just about everything except myself, as is expected of children.

On the other hand, the fact that I can no longer manage to become a child prodigy at anything, depressed me. I mean, I'm 20, it's too late to be sensational if I publish a book, if I do just about anything, it's just another step on the ladder of humanness. And that's boring. But silly too, I'm sure I'll get over it:>

So, yes. I'm packed, I have a plug to convert the electric stuff, I have everything I need, and probably a bit more than that, since I have yet to master the art of packing in moderation. Have gotten better, but it still isn't perfect:>

Also, I feel like my language has taken a turn for the worse. What the fuck is up with that? It's all formal and staccato, or something. One-two-three-one-two-three and on and on. It doesn't flow like it used to. Annoying. Maybe it'll pass over the summer. I'll only be home for ten days before I'm off to work all summer, more or less without the internet, though these days I'm sure you can hardly tell the difference. No need to guilttrip me, I do it perfectly well on my own:>

Music of the moment: Dar Williams and Melissa Ferrick and Aimee Mann and stuff like that.
Favorite? "you broke me bodily, the heart ain't the half of it, and I'll never learn to laugh at it in my goodnatured way." Bo

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