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I'll try to explain myself, just a little bit.

16.09.03 (23.00)

Why yes, I am adding this entry just to make you smile. Also this is my 1000th entry. Do I get an award?

Didn't think so. Anyways, I know I wrote on Sunday, but I feel like my entry needs some clarification, because I'm only good with clear as mud, and that's pretty hard to get for anyone who isn't me. So, nr 1, we didn't get all out socialist on the world, but the social-democrats got 50%, so they rule the town now. Yay! It's good:>

Also, the teacher upon whom I have a crush. Well, it's just one of those stupid things. Let's see, this man knows welsh, does some work with science-fiction, uses Macs (and an iPod, as mentioned), has an accent (I have no idea where he's from, but I love the way he speaks), and in general posesses a lot of little bits and pieces that make me go weak in the knees. It would be wrong of sorts to say that I have a crush on him, because I'm not stupid enough to think anything would actually happen (honestly, student/teacher relationships, how cliché can you get?), but I like the little daydreams. I've been spending a lot of time lately daydreaming. And you know, I get crushes like other people change their underwear, so it's a crush, because it's easier to term it as that.

Today I found out that he has a significant other. He wasn't gender-specific, so I won't be either, I guess chances are it's a girl, but who am I to assume? The thing is, he mentioned this person in a tiny fraction of a comment that really didn't matter, but I could feel my heart sinking. And then I was floating along the sea of desperate unease. I'm so insanely jealous of all the people in relationships at the time, I want one too... But really, my reaction was amazingly weird. Thankfully I managed to keep my cool when he said it, 'cause I hardly think a "You have a girlfriend!?" would have been appropriate. But I just felt some part of my stumach sink, and then I didn't think about it, and then I did - later on - and for a moment there, I almost had trouble breathing. It's stupid and childish and weird, but I got so jealous, and so depressed, that I didn't know where to put myself any longer.

It's kind of sad when so much of my life is based on daydreams and happy little moments.

Anyways, except for the non-crush on the teacher (which I will get over, in a while, I promise), the education is going swimmingly. I have to take 6 semesters - 1 of which I have completed, 1 of which I'm working on now - to get a bachelor in literature, then there's 4 more semesters (I think there are 4) before I get a master. Norway has began using the American system of education, and the American grade scale, so now we go from A to E. Which sucks, because the one we had before was a lot better, with more room for variation. Anyways, so there's eons and eons of ages before I get to actually finish it, 4 years, if I'm not mistaken, so my 5 year note on Sunday wasn't too far off. I thought it was, but now I see I was pretty good at guessing:>

Other than that, it is still my 1000th entry, and I feel I deserve presents. However, I guess the fact that I've made so few entries over the last few years would retract the present thing, so you are all forgiven:> Now I will go.

Music of the moment: The new Heather Nova and the Pirates of the Caribbean soundtrack.
Favorite? the way my other teacher laughs at my jokes. it's comforting.

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